After a summer hiatus, I am returning to my blog. Summer has been oppressive in both nature and soul.
I am continually reminded that I do not fit in any particular box regarding my perspective on society in general. The more my peers expect me to conform, the more my rebellious spirit strains from the expectations. When my spirit strains, I find no peace.
Who I was last year bears no resemblance to the person I am today. Circumstances change and so do people. Life does not remain steady despite ones greatest effort. I am learning to live peacefully with the information and myself. "Things Change" is a platitude to which I never paid significant attention but one that now flashes like a neon sign on the mason brick walls of my life.
It is becoming more difficult for me to express my thoughts freely in a public forum; yet, I am willing to live under the scrutiny of my village and remain true to myself. Freedom for me lies in expression of words and music.
I was recently reminded of a scene in "The Sound of Music." In this scene, Marie is counseling with Mother Abbess regarding a problem in her life. Mother Abbess responds, "Maria, these walls were not meant to shut out problems. You have to face them. You have to live the life you were born to live." Then, with traditional Rogers and Hammerstein splendor, Mother Abbess breaks out in song "Climb Every Mountain." I have a few damn mountains of my own I need to climb!
And did you know, the wool from a black sheep is just as warm?